EMOTIONAL day (s)

*Rambling post here, I need to get all of this off my chest

Death sucks. We have seen too much of it this year. My Grandmother in Feb. My Grandpa in July and my Uncle in August. Bryce knows what death is and it bothers him of course, but I'm afraid it is getting too common for him to really realize what is happening. When we got in the car after my Uncle's funeral yesterday he said "whose funeral will we go to next?" CeCe has been talking about Uncle Chawles non stop and thinks that the funeral home is Aunt Sandra's house. Sad huh? I'm so worried about my mom....she lost her mother, father and brother in 7 months. They had been her family for almost 61 years, and bam, they are all gone. I worry about her, how can you be ok after all that? My dad is also dealing with some health problems that have the potential to be serious. Please keep them in your prayers. And my Aunt, she spent her first night at home by herself last night. She has amazing friends and neighbors that I am so thankful for I'm worried about her too.

After the funeral yesterday my phone rang on the way to my Aunt's house. I didn't answer it even though it was a close friend I hadn't talked to in a while. He then sent me a text message "I have very bad news, my dad was killed last night in a motorcycle accident". I immediately called him back and talked to him for a while, he is in shock. My heart is broken for him, his sister and his mother. Jonathan and his dad were so close, very good friends. They were supposed to go to a NASCAR race together this weekend. Times like this make me ready to move back to Memphis. I should be there for him. I cannot imagine losing my Dad. I've had too many friends that have lost their dads.

We got home last night around 8 and after getting the kids to bed I sat down and looked at facebook and discovered something else horrible. My first job was the best job I've ever had, Oliver Drug Store in Southaven, MS. I started the day I turned 16 and worked there for years. The girl that trained me, Amanda, and her sister Christy both worked there for years too. Christy still does! Their younger brother Tim was my age. Amanda was diagnosed with melanoma a couple of years ago but last I heard she was doing better. From what I have gathered today, the cancer came back aggressively and she passed away yesterday. She couldn't have been more than 35 years old and has an elementary school aged son. So sad, not fair, heartbreaking.

I'm tired of death, it sucks.

Add to all of this, my baby started kindergarten today!! I am not overly emotional about that, I know he will do fine, but when I think about him growing up so much, I do get a little sad!